log date: 09/08/2022
Aug. 9th, 2022 07:18 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wastelandimperiatrixIt's been a while since I last updated, but to be honest my life has gotten really busy lately. With my partner starting a new job, and summer being busy with family, I haven't really had any time for myself in the last few months. Today is the first day I've had the house alone to myself in weeks.
I've been making progress in therapy, and I've realized that so much of who I am is based around other people, and that I haven't really taken the time to discover who I am when I'm on my own. I think that's been a hard challenge for me over the years and I'm only really just starting to understand the weight of that.
Looking around, I managed to find a bunch of journal prompts to help in this process, and I'm excited to dig in and find myself better, especially after years of being stuck in survival mode, just trying to make it through day by day.
I haven't been able to work on my website in a while, which I'm pretty sad about because I love it very much, but I want to carve out more time for myself. I think that my current setup where my laptop is, isn't working anymore, it's made it pretty inaccessible to use which is difficult to get into the mood for anything, really. I've mostly been using it to watch Doctor Who and cartoons lately, and not much else.
There was a few days where I forgot to fill my meds - which was awful, with the long weekend spent with the brain zaps and on the verge of throwing up. Not my best moment, but I'm definitely gonna make sure that doesn't happen again.
I've also been having strange dreams again. Not quite nightmare territory, but still deeply bizarre - including the appearance of a reoccurring dream I haven't had in years. It's been weird, but with adjusting to everything new that's been happening one after the other I'm not too surprised. I'm trying to be gentle with myself.
I've started a few new projects, both art-wise and not. I have a new art journal, made from a composition notebook - it's turning out fantastic. Working on a crocheted cowl/hood/shawl thing and using that project to bust my stash of wool - it's really pretty! I'll post about it when it's done.
Not sure when I'm gonna be able to release my first Perzine, Pax Druidica - it's kinda taken a big back seat since June because of how busy I've been. I need to slow down the next little while, for my own wellbeing.
It's nice to have the house to myself, the quiet is nice for a change. This past year has been a wild ride and I'm ready to rest now, at least for a short while - really take in everything I've done and learned and how I've grown so much - It's been challenging, but I've found that unfortunately, the path to growth is through being challenged.
Either way, it's nice to take this time and write and rest.
I've been making progress in therapy, and I've realized that so much of who I am is based around other people, and that I haven't really taken the time to discover who I am when I'm on my own. I think that's been a hard challenge for me over the years and I'm only really just starting to understand the weight of that.
Looking around, I managed to find a bunch of journal prompts to help in this process, and I'm excited to dig in and find myself better, especially after years of being stuck in survival mode, just trying to make it through day by day.
I haven't been able to work on my website in a while, which I'm pretty sad about because I love it very much, but I want to carve out more time for myself. I think that my current setup where my laptop is, isn't working anymore, it's made it pretty inaccessible to use which is difficult to get into the mood for anything, really. I've mostly been using it to watch Doctor Who and cartoons lately, and not much else.
There was a few days where I forgot to fill my meds - which was awful, with the long weekend spent with the brain zaps and on the verge of throwing up. Not my best moment, but I'm definitely gonna make sure that doesn't happen again.
I've also been having strange dreams again. Not quite nightmare territory, but still deeply bizarre - including the appearance of a reoccurring dream I haven't had in years. It's been weird, but with adjusting to everything new that's been happening one after the other I'm not too surprised. I'm trying to be gentle with myself.
I've started a few new projects, both art-wise and not. I have a new art journal, made from a composition notebook - it's turning out fantastic. Working on a crocheted cowl/hood/shawl thing and using that project to bust my stash of wool - it's really pretty! I'll post about it when it's done.
Not sure when I'm gonna be able to release my first Perzine, Pax Druidica - it's kinda taken a big back seat since June because of how busy I've been. I need to slow down the next little while, for my own wellbeing.
It's nice to have the house to myself, the quiet is nice for a change. This past year has been a wild ride and I'm ready to rest now, at least for a short while - really take in everything I've done and learned and how I've grown so much - It's been challenging, but I've found that unfortunately, the path to growth is through being challenged.
Either way, it's nice to take this time and write and rest.
